Saying Goodbye…

When do you know you’ve really said goodbye?


"A moment to do what is right..."

I received a letter in the (e)mail today, which shed a lot of light on a relationship that had made a turn down the street of dark and mysterious a while back. After a bitter break, the cold shoulder settled in, and I found myself bundling up all alone, wondering where the sunny smiles and warm moments had gone.

But this letter was no step in the direction of reconciliation. It was a closing. My long departed relation had finally come to a conclusion and decided, “Today is the day I will say goodbye.”

On my end of the relay, it was a definite bite into bittersweet. I cried. I was left scrambling to find my own sense of closure. I found myself not wanting to give in to letting go.

Old, dusty memories found their way into my thoughts like desperate moths bouncing off a glass lamp. Suddenly, in my mind’s eye, I would  see places we had spent time together. Remember funny little conversations. Experiences that had turned sour were suddenly being rewritten to turn sweet. And though my dear departed waved goodbye, I was left feeling closer than ever to that person’s memory, my heart refusing to wave back.

Throughout the day this wrangling has slowly subsided, but remnants linger still. Till one day soon I, too, will create the right space and the right time to finally wave back with my hand (and my heart) fully open.


About Tesz Millan

I am a professional singer of stage, radio, and television and love the process of giving life to my other passion - writing. Being a freelance copywriter, singer, and all around entrepreneur gives me the passion to live my life to the fullest everyday.
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2 Responses to Saying Goodbye…

  1. Visionkeeper says:

    Sorry to hear that Tesz…It is always such a strong moment to embrace. Just remember that all things happen for a reason and when one door closes another opens and usually for the better because with that closing of the door you grew into a better person. Out of all bad comes some good. I always spend time looking for the lesson and the good which helps me grow but also takes my mind off of the pain. It does work. Celebrate your new growth and love yourself! VK 🙂

    • Tesz Millan says:

      Yes. The growing pains of change. The struggle with accepting the unforeseen new. I did a lot of thinking after this particular post, and was surprised to see how difficult the shift of letting go could be. But it is here. And the best way to feel better, as you suggested VK, is to celebrate my growth and myself in the here and now.

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