Knowing what you are not helps you understand what you are…
I wouldn’t say that I am conventional in the least bit. I don’t do corporate. I’ll tolerate a chain restaurant, but would much rather visit a “Tante Emma” restaurant where I’m the only person eating who orders in English. I rarely follow trends. And I don’t settle for the first parking space I see in the parking lot.
I’m also not ultra-eccentric. Going over the edge is a rare occurrence for me. I’d rather be quiet than loud. And once I see a system or formula that makes sense to me and presents a logical outcome that quiets my inner-skepticism rather than raising my army of defenses, I’m all over it in a heartbeat.
Often when I’m confronted with an impulse that urges me to go down a particular path, the first thing I do is take a good look around. What’s happening around this particular choice? Who else is following and how does it affect them? Finally, I ask: How is this affecting me right now? Do I feel safe? Can I relate to the process and its outcome? Is this really for me?
Probably from being told way too often what I should be doing and not having the courage in the past to follow through with what my gut was telling me to do, I retract from following blindly and doing what is expected. I question and question and question again,
“Is this really, truly right for me?”
The answer is not always what I expect. More often than not, it is. Whether I choose to follow that gut reaction, is another blog in itself. But I at least know this to be true: I am on my path. This may not be the path that is conventional to all, or even to a select few. But it is just right for me. Clearly. Soundly. And most important of all, honestly.